Too Much Purpose?

It's been quite a while since I wrote a blog post and a lot has evolved for me and for many of you. What I have found is that I am so sensitive to the energies that whenever I feel very back-and-forth about something, I check the records and it tends to be a moment of shifting energy to support growth and change.

What is it about the energy flow that impacts us so much and yet is so subtle that we find ourselves wondering, "what is going on!?!"? I find that practicing Kundalini Yoga helps me smooth out the energy ridges that build up in my aura and yet, a part of me is resisting the practice of it. Meditation is such an excellent and peaceful practice as well for not only true inner harmony and outer connection and I adore the practice. Yet again, I can't find myself dedicating any regular time to either of these beautiful practices?

Why?

My soul is telling me that it's because I'm inauthentic about it. It might be a harsh thing to say but, it's important to be honest and listen to the soul's messages. The cold truth that I need to face is that I'm inauthentic about how I sometimes go about my spiritual walk because I have more "letting go" to allow; more shedding of false truths. I have worn the social mask of professionalism and academia so much that I've literally "forgotten" the truth and keep rowing in circles because I'm doing it with too much purpose.

Yes, you read that right!

Too much purpose - what do I mean by this? 

Well, aren't we "supposed" to live with purpose and all that? Find our "true purpose" and "live our best life"? Yes! And...I think many of us are trained to achieve so that we forgot how to "Be". We think we want to ACHIEVE ________ (fill in the blank of whatever goal you are thinking about) and make money. Don't we think about I'd love to do_______ and then the next step is how can we monetize this idea?

The truth is, we don't achieve our true purpose, we become it! Actually we are already everything we need to be if only we allow ourselves to true be. I always wondered what people meant by "getting in your own way" and now I think I finally understand the meaning through realizing that is EXACTLY what I've been doing by trying to achieve instead of allowing myself to BE.

Being in your own way means simply being too much in your own head or focusing on something other than allowing yourself to be still rather than rushing, striving, and grinding non-stop. 

Our bodies give us clues to what is happening in our spiritual reality. Angst, dis-ease, or other tension-related symptoms might be connected to us clenching down and leaning too hard into the wind. Rather, maybe we just need to realize we have wings, allow them to open and then ride the wind. 

I find that lately, whenever I want to meditate or practice just 20 minutes of yoga, I am blocked like in a dream when I try to move but realize I can't; I'm frozen. The message and lesson here is to stop wanting and trying but allow. For some people, a schedule is what they need and perhaps they are a FOUR life path energy but I am a SEVEN with lots of Five energies. For me, a schedule is like a slow death so I allow me to be on my own path, my own timing, and connect with my purpose through my spiritual path and adventures.

Join me as I document what I learn along my path. I don't know if anyone will ready my blog posts and if you do find yourself here and my words resonate with you, feel free to reach out to me at Coach@Tealonics.com.

Signed yours in Light,

Dimalah

P.S. Dimalah is my spiritual name given to me in a vision - I will share this in another upcoming blog post, so subscribe so you don't miss any updates.